I totally forget this was here, I forgot that I could even write like this, think this way and feel in such a way I did before.

To cut a long story short, I’m back to square one. Knowing I was going to walk down the aisle with someone I wasn’t totally in love with is a hard decision to make, but I made the right choice, and even though it doesn’t seem like I have right now, I know in the long run it will benefit me completely and I will learn to fall in love again, and I will be happy.

I got myself out of the rut I was in, but now it seems like I have come to not so much a crossroads, but a fork in the road. I can choose one of two paths. Right now the path to independence and freedom, and anonymity is the path that has me falling to temptation. I want something new, something real, somewhere no one knows my name, and I could have that, if I use the backbone I found in myself recently.